Had I access to a “Cosmic Phone” that I could resort to every time I had a crucial question, I would certainly have run out of credit by now.
So much of my life has been about making decisions in the dark. As an independent artist, uncertainty is part of my day-to-day life. I live with questions like “Will I ever be able to record this song I’ve spent months working on?” or “If I get to record and release it, will people like it and buy it”? On a more philosophical note, the question that often comes up is “Is this faith I experience or am I just deluding myself”?
In times like these, I would totally pick up my “Cosmic Phone” and say “Hello, God? When do I know I have tried too many times”? Apparently, this week I got an answer and it went:
“Don’t believe in any one person or in any one attempt. Believe in trying. Try you must. In trying, you are in the makings and that’s what you were born for, to develop, to make progress, to change. For what would be left of you if you quit trying”?
I guess the show must go on!!!
Have you ever experienced fulfillment?
Yesterday, I went to visit a class of 6th graders who had participated in one of my campaigns called “The Right Challenge.” Coordinated by their teacher, Cristiane Padilha, they downloaded the song and recorded a video giving themselves the right to dance away all over their school campus http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I5FfvHlQKfY
On my visit, I wanted to give them an experience of the creative process so I got them to write a list of three things they give themselves the right to. With their lists, we wrote a new section to the song and sang away.
The collective creative process, the joy with which they participated in the activity and sang the song, the notion that perhaps they understood a little bit about the joy of self-expression, all that gave me an enormous sense of fulfillment.
In my opinion, fulfillment remains as one of those few experiences that cannot be bought. In my case, it comes from knowing that I’m using the best of what I’ve got to hopefully help bring about the best in others. And to walk away with lots of drawings saying “Haikaa, te amo”, honestly, it doesn’t get any better than that!!!
If you love some birdie, set them free!!!
If I could be any animal I wanted, I would most certainly choose to be a bird. I long for freedom and flying seems to me like the ultimate expression of that. When I go bird watching, I love to see the birds flying closer and then flying away. Those brief encounters are as beautiful as they are ephemeral.
You see, when I was a child in the countryside of Brazil, the predominant belief at the time was still that of “human beings dominating nature.” So, having caged birds was something that I grew up with. We had all kinds of birds including parrots. Parrots are very affectionate and my parrot would get goose bumps every time I petted it. It would climb up on my head, sing with me, dance and even say goodbye to me before I went off to school.
However, as I grew up, I began to see the cruelty in this. First of all, one can only buy parrots because an animal trafficker stole the young parrots from their parents. Second, the only way to keep an animal like this at home is to lock it up on a cage or cut off the feathers of its wings so it can no longer fly. Thirdly, its capacity to be affectionate is intricately related to its very nature of having one lifelong partner. Once parrots find their mates, they form strong bonds and usually stay together until they die. They take care of each other and of their babies. So parrots are not affectionate to us humans because they were made to be our pets. Their sweet and loving behavior is part of their very fragile reproductive cycle and monogamous nature. So as my version of Sting’s song goes, “if you love some birdie, set them free.”
I have recently created a page on the World Wildlife Fund website called “Blue Parrots in the Blue Sky” to try to raise awareness about the fragility of this specific species of parrots - http://wwf.worldwildlife.org/site/TR/Events/PandaPages?pxfid=40922&fr_id=1040&pg=fund Please come and visit this page, leave a comment and share it with your friends.
Hopefully, together we can completely switch this vision of “human beings dominating nature” to “human beings admiring, contemplating and preserving nature.”
I think we can.
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Journal of a Singer-songwriter 7 - Breath Control
On this entry, I talk about the two pillars for my development of breath control - the emotional pillar and the technical one.
Song: I’ll Wait (Haikaa/Mercuri)
Journal of a Singer-songwriter 6 - Songwriting II
On this entry, I talk about how the songwriting process happens for me but unlike on entry 5, I focus on writing a song starting with the lyrics.
Song: Happy (Haikaa/Mercuri)